It's been a while since I've been here. The memory of this forum back to me. I remember sending a message to the moderator to delete my account, but I guess there's some sort of will for me to stick around.
If any of you remember, I was the horny-high school kid, posting about my antics and odd adventures. A bit immature too, and most of those posts I deeply regret posting. Or some of the embarrassing opening up to others on here. Shit like that just makes me want to slap myself on the head.
But I digress. I'm glad to see ABCs thriving. When I saw JT in that article
Asian Like Me I was taken by surprise. I had mixed feelings about Wesley Yang's article. I think I ejected myself out of the whole Asian-American sociology. A lot of it just made me feel depressed/burnt out. I had a much easier time of being on my own, doing my own thing, etc.
The reason why I'm writing back on here is...well I don't know what to do with myself. At least not completely. I finally made it to NYC, attending art school full time. It seems that everything is going good, but there are the times where I get frustrated and don't know where to really turn to. My confidence fluctuates. I'm 6"1 and in shape with a six pack. You'd think a guy like me would be getting laid like crazy (especially in a college environment) but I don't see results.
So much has happened since I was last active on here. In a nut shell, I almost died from a condition called
gastroparesis, lost 30 pounds in a week, spent over 6 months recovering, huge anxiety episodes, an affair with an attractive white girl (that I fucked up because of anxiety), family bullshit, an extreme bipolar episode, and then finally pulled through.
I remember making a post, asking for someone to help me translate a family heirloom (
http://www.abcsofattraction.com/community/main-lounge-f22/anyone-here-speak-chinese-t4506.html). Stuff like this made me feel as if this brotherhood going on here runs much more deeper than getting laid.
Anyways, I'm back. I've strayed from the whole PUA thing though, a lot these terms thrown around do annoy me. My game has grown into a much more natural way. I still struggle, but I feel much more natural than I did when I was following routines and scripts. I'd like to change my username (Erison has a dead meaning to me) so if any moderators can help me, that'd be great.
Anyone in NYC I'd be happy to meet up over some tea. I don't "sarge" a whole much anymore. Running up to womens' faces never really got me anywhere. You could say I'm a bit burned out. I don't know. I was hoping someone on here could help me with that. I haven't been laid in almost two years.
But I digress. It feels good to be back. My apologies for leaving the brotherhood.
