30 day challenge

I started another 30 day challenge. Last one I did, I failed to make updates on it, which sucked. I started a blog for this new one which will also tract statistics for me. I will double post onto the forum for your viewing pleasure and my vanity.

http://martyr30.blogspot.com

I am staying away from alcohol and masturbation, trying to limit my use of wings, going to engage in some hobbies, and reading, and forcing my ass into the gym.

Day 1

I did 2 field sessions today - one at the mall and one bar hopping.

Went down to the mall on the way home from work to meet up with Shiznites, walked around, and I kept thinking, god this mall sucks ass! Not a lot of girls, and many of which are very young. I saw a cute girl walk by and into a store who looked just like Charlize Theron. Walked over and decided on shock and awe during my march over to her.

"Hey, listen. You can't go walking around the mall looking like that and not expect me to come over and say hi. You're adorable, what is the matter with you?"

Asked some generic interview questions, she went back to shopping.

Phew - that wasn't so bad

Spotted another hottie walking out of Urban Outfitters and towards Forever 21. I thought about it a little too much. I remembered that if I think too much, then just run over there and trust that the words will come out. So I start to sprint, got over there, complimented her, chatted a little, and she went back to shopping.

I was walking when I saw this girl in the distance. She looked like she could be a little too young. Whatever, I'll just go and fuck around. Walked over to her -

"Hey!"
"Yes?"
(Singing) "You remind me of a girl, that I, once knew....."

She stayed for the entire chorus! Her feet glued to the ground. Awesome. I finished my song, got nervous, and let her get on her way.

That sums up the mall session.

Had some dinner and then met up with Raven in the city. I had a weird feeling that 230 fifth might be good tonight. We rolled over there, and there were a couple of sets, mostly vacationers. Raven went in to this 2 set French girls, with one of them being super hot. I'll go and take one for the team! Chatted with the friend, who didn't like me at all. But distract her from her friend I definitely did.

Got out of there, we went into other sets, but nothing much happened. There was this one girl in a 4 set that didn't say anything, and I ended up asking if she spoke English. Turns out, she doesn't! She understood when I spoke slowly, but elected not to try the English she knew.

Went to this hookah bar in West Village and saw a 2 set of tall thin brunettes (yes! my girlfriend finally appeared!). I make my approach, and the friend gets distracted. Hug, push off, claw, push off, hand hold.

After we chat a bit:

HB: I am going outside to go smoke, I'll be right back.
Me: No, don't come right back.
HB (confused): Are you saying that because you don't think I'm coming back.
Me: This is your one shot at me. You screw this up or walk away, that's it.
HB: What if I have to pee or something? I deserve at least 2-3 shots at it.

Forgot what was exchanged, but I ended up walking back to Raven. I tell him this is on, I have no idea why I walked over to him. He tells me I should go back in. I go back and tell her I am going outside, walk with me. And she does. Once outside, some guy tried to AMOG me (wtf? every fuckin night I get this shit). The girl and I have already created an 'us' bubble, he was too late. I walked a couple of steps away from the front of the bar with the girl and I share a couple of stories. Raven walks by and I yell to him:

Me: Hey! Raven, meet my girlfriend! This is HB, isn't she adorable? (as I do this, I am clawing her, I push her off just a bit, and then I pull her in by the far side of her head and kiss her on the near side of her head)

They exchange introductions and a couple of words and the girl ends up saying something that Raven teases her for, and I join in with "You're embarrassing me in front of my friend!" (pounding in the girlfriend dynamic further). We continue to vibe, the makeout was there, at least I should have gone for it. I wussed out.

A couple of minutes later, her friends pull her back to the bar, she asks me to call her. Good thing I got the number in the middle instead of having an awkward moment here.

It was a fun night. The physical push-pull is awesome, even I feel the emotional spikes from it. The girlfriend role play was fun too. And flipping the script on her, telling her she only has one shot at me - money!

you are starting to become a "Flawless Natural"..

good job..i am starting to notice the evolution of your style and attitude.

Awesome Tommy, you're gonna be a monster after this challenge.

Tommy,

I'm really enjoying reading about your gutsy approaches. You're really evolving and re-programming your brain.

-William

Did another double session today - Again mall and bar hopping

Mall

Saw this hottie walk by and hesitated. I knew I had to approach, so I turned around to see her go into the store. Told my head to pipe down. Didn't work. I commit to running toward the store, and slowing down as I walked in. Delivered opener, she was stunned and startled. Went into shock and awe, and that completely eased her. We chatted for a couple of minutes - she's a flight attendant and leaving in the morning. I should have pushed it (bar, hotel, fun times), but I'm retarded. Approached 2 more girls, with the last one being my first time ever going for a phone number at the mall! Awesome!

Bar hopping

Man, I couldn't get anything going on my street approaches. Oh well, had to give it a try. Went into beauty bar and winged Raven on a set and approached some on my own. I couldn't things going at all with any of the girls. We were about to leave, even though I had spotted this hottie in a hard to get to corner of the bar. I walked through chairs, tables, her friend, to get to her, telling her I had to meet her. I invade personal space, was unfazed by it and conversation flowed. We squeezed into a one seat couch seat. There was an air of sexuality in that conversation, but I didn't take advantage of it. I did build some good comfort with her. KnightRider took pictures of us, with one of them me kissing her on the top of the head and her making a seductive pose (oh yeeeah), and another of her kissing me on the cheek. Left with her number, but I really should have tried to move her, isolate her, and tried to make out with her. Definitely a hottie. I definitely wanted to make out with her.

Bounced around to more bars and did some more street approached, but nothing was really working with me. I'm not sure if I was projecting something negative or weird tonight, I'll try to pay more attention to what I am thinking and feeling next time this happens.

nice gutsy fr. I like reading your new habits. You should just try asking for sex. someone gotta say yes after a 100 times

Rainy day, which believe it or not, affects my mood. I didn't have any friends want to go out with me, so I went out on my own. This community is weird in that you can barely know some people, and they understand that you are on the same path of self-improvement and going for what you want and see you as a brother. I ran into Davinci and Captain Awesome in Wholefoods and decided to go bar hopping with them after a brief chat.

Rain sucked, we went to this bar in West Village which was having a karaoke night. Didn't see much when i walked in, so I broke from the group to find my girlfriend for the night. I have this thing that turns on and off, where I want to break away from the group and find something before one of the other guys spots her first. I find that when someone else spots her first, it can turn out one of two ways, he goes in before I do, which doesn't help me, or we stand around talking about who goes up to her, which is a state killing conversation. I go through to the back and spotted this one cutie with long curly blond hair and tried to laser eye her as I walked through. She didn't notice me. I made some excuse in my head not to approach. (Retarded!)

Back out at the main bar area, I committed to approaching her. Once I fully embraced that commitment, the rest was automatic:

Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot.....
Stop
Touch as I verbally engage her
Give genuine compliment with breaking rapport tonality
Be chill and have fun

It was on with this girl. Hand squeezes, ignoring everyone else. Her friend walked by and gave her the elbow tap and pointed outside, she ignored it at the moment. I think at one point, either because my game wasn't tight, or she really had to go (her friends left us alone and had been waiting outside for her for a few minutes), she said she had to go. My loser mindset thought I had already fucked things up beyond repair, but as she was leaving, there was an excessive amount of touching (around the waist, more hand squeezing), as if she was telling me to be a man an demand that she leave her friends. I failed.....

Definitely could have tried to kiss her, it was there. Some times, I still have this mindset that I am not supposed to kiss a girl until after a "sufficient" amount of time. I need to rid myself of this mentality and go for it when I want to and feel it.

I did some street approaches, but in the rain, and in the dark, just about all the girls were not having it. Other sets occurred, but nothing worth noting.

I agree on rainy days it's harder to do street approaches. Keep up the good work.

Tommy,

I know that you're really hard on yourself at times, but just to give you some perspective, there are guys who are quietly reading your posts and are secretly wishing that they could self-identify areas within themselves of potential opportunity.... meanwhile, here you are showing some really great amounts of self-awareness. Nice work with that.

-William